Friday, September 21, 2007 Friday, September 21, 2007
marie birthday is on 23september.and i dunno if anybody is celebrating with her anot
really feel so lost now
dear marie if you are reading this,
please reply our messages no matter how busy you are.
i really want C3 to be together and go out on 23 or some other day
C3 are messaging you and you are not replying
can't you tell that we miss you alot?
please please please
i stare at the screen having a blank mind
aren't friends suppose to be open to each other?
i am starting to ask myself this question whenever i think of that
i realised that my friends can simply lie to me
or they can don't even tell me anything that i want to know
they will know everything related to me but not tell me theirs
this result in miscommunication
not understanding to each other
and also making wild guesses to each other
seeing friends together i feel so bad
everyday seeing friends eating, talking and laughing together
they share their problems and so on
and who can i turn to?
and this is so sad
the distance is really getting far
and i feel that i'm being used
i am so tired
things and facts are hidding away from me
when i want to join you
you are always forever with your own group of friends
however i can't possibly force you to befriend with me like before
its is your own choice
i can't force
i really can't change your mind and decisions who you want to be with
i really don't understand you well
i really can't communicate well with you all
在我们之间就好像有一层薄薄的丝布隔离着
我发现我再也无法和你沟通，我也不懂你在想什么
this really make me feel so shit
i really really want to get all these right
